double blah

mr ex man im'd me. i will write more later. i just dont have it in me to relive it right now. it really isnt good. i dont really get how this is playing out. am i being tested? are my prayers being answered? i just dont get it. its so difficult and i am sick of difficulty. i looked at some old im's from about 6 months ago. same ole same ole. literally nothing has changed. he says the same thing. i say the same thing. double blah.