and so it continues...

i am definitely better, but still pretty bad. grateful for any improvement, but after four days, i am so ready for this to be over. turns out just about everyone has caught this bug-my sister in law who NEVER gets sick has it. four of her eight kids have it as well. talk about being grateful for your trials.
i have always hated that. " be grateful for your trials" (imagine me saying it in a whiney mimic-y type voice). i think i took it too literally-too surface. like be grateful your husband cheated on you with one of your best friends from high school. how can one be grateful for that? but...i can be grateful i never procreated with him(she did and he is a major dead beat dad. kind of surprises me, but it turned out that way.)and for the strength i gained by fighting my way through that trial. reminds me of that talk by ardith g kapp that tells us not to pray for lighter burdens, but for stronger backs. it turned me around a little on the subject of trials.
a lot has happened to me over the last ten years or so. some really icky, bad stuff. stuff i wouldnt wish on anyone, but stuff has been happening to others that make me so grateful that i dont have to deal with what they are going through. grateful for the trials that Heavenly Father has given me. like being sick. i am grateful to be miserable on my own and not responsible for eight kids while i am sick. perspective. its all in the perspective. sometimes. other times it just sucks, but whats a girl to do? endure, right? sigh.
i still feel sorry for myself sometimes. not too often and i wont allow myself to wallow in self pity for very long. kind of pointless. get on with the lessons and pulling yourself out of the mire.
i am rambling. again. sorry.
anyone know of really great cough/cold/flu meds? theraflu and benadryl(thought it might be allergies as well)havent really helped. thanks.

p.s.

when i am sick i get motivated in the oddest ways. i decided i had to give myself a pedicure. what the heck? all i should be doing is drinking plenty of fluids and resting, but i gave myself the crappiest pedicure ever. now i am too exhausted to get up to get the nail polish remover and take all the nail polish off. just looking at my feet pisses me off. i am just a jewel, arent i? its a wonder they havent married me off. does anyone want to make me some herbal tea? please?

its going around

and i think i am coming down with it. i do not want to get sick!! i am all tired and achy. nothing tastes good and i cant write. i have about 6 partial posts just waiting to be finished, but no matter which direction i take them, they just suck.
everyone is over for the super bowl. i hate football, but i love a good super bowl party. not even enjoying this one. wahhhhhhhhhh. being a big ole cry baby. sorry.
the silver lining: the buffalo chicken dip i made was a big hit.