done deal

my dating profile is up on one of the lds dating sites. i feel slightly nauseous. i am really trying to get to why this is making me so nervous. is it like a dance-afraid no one will ask the tall, non- blonde? is it because the last time i had a profile listed, i met and fell in love with mr ex man and we all know how that turned out?
even the pictures that i loved so much seem kind of icky to me. like somehow i morphed into an unattractive beast.
is it just me? am i being silly? do men go through this anxiety?
i am sure i will calm down. its just the initial step back into the abyss.
i hate feeling this way. kind of foriegn-i am ok in just about any other social situation. more than ok, but this is just DIFFICULT.

single and mormon

you really might as well have 2 heads. even though the single poplulation within the mormon church has grown considerably, the ability to deal successfully with said population is some what behind.it was even worse a little over 10 years ago when i divorced my "non-member" husband. when i started going back to church regularly, most wanted to chalk my divorce up to the simple fact i had married a "non member". if i had listened more closely to the spirit, i would have been guided to marry a wonderful returned missionary and been on my way to eternal happiness. WHATEVER.