Monday, December 20, 2010


i think i just had a dtr with dick. it wasnt a big deal, but it was nice. very nice, indeed.
i never thought i would have a dtr. i felt somewhat above a dtr, but it just kind of HAPPENED .
kind of like a few weeks ago when we were discussing how we met on the lds dating website and we both ended up canceling our accounts together. it just HAPPENED .
i have never been a big fan of the concept of something just "happening". i always considered it total bs, but now...things are just happening and i am pretty happy about it.
my compulsion to ruin things with my fears and insecurities is at an all time low and that mainly has to do with the way he handles things. the way he handles me.
i know that sound horrible. "handles me", but its not horrible. its nice.
i have to admit there is still a subtle sense of waiting for the other shoe to fall and a need to prepare for the worst, but i am fighting it.
i will keep you posted.


  1. i am so excited for you. a complete stranger i am extatic for you. I know your feeling far to well. thinking alright plan for the worst hope for the best type of feeling... But i am glad you are letting him show you hes worth it!

  2. Please excuse my ignorance...but what is a dtr?

  3. determining the relationship. i think it is relatively new slang made popular by the byu types :) i recently learned it myself from the guys over at mormon bachelor pad.
    aheley and midwaye-thank you! i am pretty excited, but trying to maintain some calm and good judgment. lol

  4. I'm SO excited for you. I can't remember how I came upon your blog, but I believer I've been reading it for about a year. I feel like I know you. I'm rooting for you!

  5. I don't think this comment thing is working. I'll give it 1 more try! I've been following your blog for about a year now. I can't even remember how I found it, but I'm SO excited for you. This post made my day. GOOD LUCK!

  6. thank you everyone! i really appreciate it. things just seem to be getting better! i will seriously be trying to blog more about this process-give the flip side to my bitter divorcee-ness. :)