i think i just had a dtr with dick. it wasnt a big deal, but it was nice. very nice, indeed.
i never thought i would have a dtr. i felt somewhat above a dtr, but it just kind of HAPPENED .
kind of like a few weeks ago when we were discussing how we met on the lds dating website and we both ended up canceling our accounts together. it just HAPPENED .
i have never been a big fan of the concept of something just "happening". i always considered it total bs, but now...things are just happening and i am pretty happy about it.
my compulsion to ruin things with my fears and insecurities is at an all time low and that mainly has to do with the way he handles things. the way he handles me.
i know that sound horrible. "handles me", but its not horrible. its nice.
i have to admit there is still a subtle sense of waiting for the other shoe to fall and a need to prepare for the worst, but i am fighting it.
i will keep you posted.