will this end?!?!

church was difficult today. i have no particular connection to easter. no bad memories or anything like that. it was just difficult. sat in the very back. i never do that. i didnt enjoy the talks. my favorite teacher in rs lesson did nothing for me. i felt guilty about that. i am pissed off and feeling sorry for myself. a girl in the ward approached me about going with her to some sa activities. i feel like i should go, do some sort of socializing, but i am just in no mood. blah. i need to think of something else to write about. my intention of a witty and cool look into my experience as a single mormon has just faded away. want to get it back.