and so it continues...

i am definitely better, but still pretty bad. grateful for any improvement, but after four days, i am so ready for this to be over. turns out just about everyone has caught this bug-my sister in law who NEVER gets sick has it. four of her eight kids have it as well. talk about being grateful for your trials.
i have always hated that. " be grateful for your trials" (imagine me saying it in a whiney mimic-y type voice). i think i took it too literally-too surface. like be grateful your husband cheated on you with one of your best friends from high school. how can one be grateful for that? but...i can be grateful i never procreated with him(she did and he is a major dead beat dad. kind of surprises me, but it turned out that way.)and for the strength i gained by fighting my way through that trial. reminds me of that talk by ardith g kapp that tells us not to pray for lighter burdens, but for stronger backs. it turned me around a little on the subject of trials.
a lot has happened to me over the last ten years or so. some really icky, bad stuff. stuff i wouldnt wish on anyone, but stuff has been happening to others that make me so grateful that i dont have to deal with what they are going through. grateful for the trials that Heavenly Father has given me. like being sick. i am grateful to be miserable on my own and not responsible for eight kids while i am sick. perspective. its all in the perspective. sometimes. other times it just sucks, but whats a girl to do? endure, right? sigh.
i still feel sorry for myself sometimes. not too often and i wont allow myself to wallow in self pity for very long. kind of pointless. get on with the lessons and pulling yourself out of the mire.
i am rambling. again. sorry.
anyone know of really great cough/cold/flu meds? theraflu and benadryl(thought it might be allergies as well)havent really helped. thanks.