the games people play

i hate games, yet i willingly walked into this game with mr jack mormon. i should be beyond this kind of junior high level of game playing. i dont think i played these games when i was actually in junior high. feeling silly and a little embarrassed. i am not designed for this kind of relationship. meaningless. careless. its really late. not thinking too straight. i realize the tone of this post is leaning towards depressing. this isnt heartbreak or regret over a lost opportunity, simply disappointment in myself for wasting time on such silliness.