happy birthday

today is mr ex man's birthday. i didnt call, text, or email him. i wont. kind of irritated that i remembered it. just want to be past it all and not think about him anymore. i was doing pretty well until today when i remembered his dang birthday. in this area, for this one time, i would like to be like a man and just be able to forget important dates and compartmentalize all my thoughts and emotions so they didnt sneak up on me like they did today. sigh. attempted aversion therapy by thinking of all the a-hole things he said and did, but thats like opening a wound. dont want to do that.