Wednesday, October 21, 2009
facebook can really bring back your past and set it right at your feet. i got a friend request from a boy(now a man, of course)i knew in high school. even though he was super shy, i knew he liked me. we sat next to each other in seminary my senior year and got to know each other a little bit. i was broken up with tgws for most of my senior year, so if he had asked me out, i would have went, but he never asked. he had an obnoxious friend who tried to get him to do it, but he was just too shy. there was one embarrassing night where they showed up at my house way too late(i had strict, very old fashioned parents)and the obnoxious friend was making a lot of noise. i got so angry that they were risking getting me in trouble that i bolted out the front door and told the sweet, but shy guy that if he wanted to ask me out to do it without his obnoxious friend hanging around and get the hell away from my house before my dad came out and made us all sorry. he must have been really embarrassed because i dont think he ever spoke to me again. after that, i pretty much forgot about it. i had a lot of stuff going on-the final break up with tgws. dating a lot. my engagement to msof. one night we went out with msof's friends to a 50's style drive in where the guys liked to show off their cars. msof had just bought a very cool, very fast muscle car and wanted all his friends to see it. once we got there i realized there were a ton of people i knew from school. i was glad to have others to talk to since the bs conversation msof was having with his friends was getting boring really fast. i walked across the parking lot to say hi to this small group of guys. they were all shocked i was with msof(this seemed to be the general consensus when we told people we went to school with), but were happy to see me. as we were talking, someone brought up shy guys name. i asked how he was doing and joked about how he never asked me out. the look of utter shock on their faces told me that i should have kept my mouth shut. i immediately started back pedaling, trying to laugh it off and save face. as i went to leave and return to the other side of the parking lot where msof was, they all gave me a hug and wished me good luck. in the few seconds it took me to walk across the parking lot, msof had already called off his red neck, truck driving buddies from beating the hell of of the boys who had hugged me a few minutes before. i guess them even looking at me for more that a few seconds broke some good ol boy code of conduct. they were soon distracted by a group of ultra preppy college boys who looked at one of their girl friends the wrong way. i am not sure how we got out of there without blood shed. the guys were practically frothing at the mouth and the girls were crying. it was a mess. the next night when i got home from work, my mom said that the shy guy had dropped by. my heart plunged into my stomach. i guess he pretty much spilled his guts to my mom, telling her how he loved me since high school, but didnt think he had a chance and he had to talk to me before i married msof. i felt like such a jerk. i tried to go see him, but couldnt track him down. called and left a message, but he never called back. a life time passes and hes my friend on facebook. we caught up a little via im. he asked about my divorce and then commented: "you are and always were too good for msof". it might be self indulgent, but it was nice to hear.